Don’t mention ginger! It doesn’t help severe pregnancy sickness or #hyperemesis

I’m sure you’ve all noticed the big announcement in the news this week – little Prince George is going to be a big brother. Obviously that’s very happy news, but like when the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge announced their first pregnancy, this announcement has had to come earlier than the usual 12 week milestone when many people share their news because Kate is suffering again with Hyperemesis Gravidarum or HG – severe pregnancy sickness.

When the news broke last time, I felt the urge to write a blog post on it because of the way this severe form of pregnancy sickness was being talked about in the media. I kept reading about the fact that she was suffering from ‘morning sickness’, albeit an ‘acute’ or ‘severe’ case. This annoyed me then, and it still annoys me this time around, because there still seems to be a lack of understanding about what the poor mum is living with. Although the sickness I suffered in both pregnancies wasn’t quite as severe as hers, I do know what it’s like to have more than a spot of morning sickness.

Probably my biggest issue with the term ‘morning sickness’ and how it is used in reference to someone suffering with severe pregnancy sickness is the ‘morning’ bit of it. At the beginning of my pregnancies, I was sick any hour of the day and night, multiple times. In fact I’d say apart from the dash to the toilet as soon as I got up, I was sick more often towards the end of the day and into the evening, because the sickness was worse the more tired I was. In my second pregnancy, I can still distinctly remember feeling nauseous while in labour in the evening. HG is not confined to the morning, it takes over daily life, morning, afternoon, evening, night. I had a week off work when the sickness first hit in my first pregnancy, and I don’t take sick days lightly. In my second pregnancy I went to (paid) work for a rest as it was easier than looking after a toddler (not that I was very productive in that time).

This week I watched a TV programme in which a friend of mine, Amanda (who blogs at the Family Patch and has coauthored a book on HG) and TV doctor Dr Hilary were being interviewed about HG. It was great that they had invited someone in who has experienced HG and has researched a lot on the topic. Shame they also invited a (male) doctor who didn’t have a clue. One part of the interview that really annoyed me was when the doctor mentioned ginger. This natural substance has been found to relieve nausea, so is often suggested as something mums suffering from morning sickness can try. While this may well help those feeling a bit icky of a morning, in my experience it doesn’t do a thing for repeated vomiting and constant all-day nausea. If I had a pound for every time someone asked if I’d tried ginger when I was pregnant, at least I’d have made a fair financial profit from pregnancy. In all honesty, once I’d been asked for the umpteenth time, it was difficult not to slap the person asking! Apparently I’m not the only one who feels this way about the mention of ginger in talk of pregnancy sickness – there were plenty of us shouting at the screen when the TV doctor mentioned it on this interview.

Another aspect of pregnancy sickness that I find misunderstood is the length of time that it can go on for. Everyone says that you’ll feel better at the end of the first trimester, to just hang on in there until 12 weeks then it’ll all be fine. I was disappointed that this wasn’t the case for me. In my first pregnancy, I continued being and feeling sick well into the second trimester. In my second pregnancy, I was still being sick until about half way (20 weeks) and the nausea didn’t go until I gave birth. Imagine having one of those 24 stomach bugs, the kind that means you throw everything up for about half a day and then feel nauseous and wiped out for the other half of the day. Now imagine that on a 9 month time scale. NOT NICE.

I, like many other mums, found that my sickness got worse (lasted longer) in my second pregnancy. I often get asked if we’d like a third child (mostly in reference to whether we’d like a girl – but that’s another blog post entirely) and my answer always goes something like this… No way at the moment! Some days and in some ways I’d quite like a third child, but the main thing that puts me off is doing pregnancy while looking after 2 active boys – I’d worry that my sickness would be even worse a third time round, and I’m not sure how I’d cope. I think having a newborn as well as the boys would still be hard work, but I think I could cope more with that than the 9 months before it. I know that some mums who’ve had severe pregnancy sickness decide to stick with an only child because they can’t face it again. This sickness is a serious matter if it puts you off having another child.

This royal baby is a second pregnancy, so the chances are, the Duchess is feeling even worse than last time and it might go on for longer. It’s encouraging, though, that she is being treated at home rather than hospital this time, particularly because she has another child to look after (though I’m sure she has plenty of help with that). As much as I wouldn’t wish HG on anyone, I do hope that the fact that someone so present in the media spotlight is suffering with it will ultimately help others – with blog posts like this and all the opportunities for previous sufferers to tell their stories to others while it is so prominent in the media coverage, I hope that awareness will be raised of exactly what it is like, how it’s not just about feeling a bit icky in the morning, and how ginger will not help, so don’t even suggest it!

It’s not just about feeling a bit icky first thing when you wake up!

This wasn’t what I expected to be writing about whilst sitting feeding my 5 week old baby; I thought I’d left it behind us when he was born. But with the news that the Duchess of Cambridge is pregnant but in hospital with “acute morning sickness”, I decided I had to write a quick post to try and spread the word that calling her condition “morning sickness”, even with the adjective “severe” or “acute”, trivialises what she is going through.

In both my pregnancies I suffered with nausea and vomiting. As I had this blog during my second pregnancy, I wrote about it in my pregnancy diary posts quite often in the first half of pregnancy: week 14, week 15, week 16, week 17, week 18, week 19. The graph below is taken from my week 15 post. The second pregnancy was slightly worse than the first in terms of how long the nausea went on for – I felt sick at some point in every day of it, even up to the night he was born. At first it was all day, yes that’s right, ALL DAY, worse in the evening, yes that’s right, the EVENing, but after about 20 weeks (out of 40) it started to just be in the afternoon and evening. Until about 15 weeks I was being sick several times a day, which eased to just a couple of times a day until about 20 weeks and then no actual vomiting just the constant nausea after that. It was similar timescales in my first pregnancy, except the nausea did wear off towards the very end – possibly because I had toddler to tire me out second time round, or because apparently it can get worse with successive pregnancies.

I did not enjoy being pregnant; I never got that ‘blooming’ feeling that people talk about. I never felt hungry – hunger just translated to nausea. I distinctly remember the first time I felt properly hungry again after each birth, and could enjoy a nice meal rather than just eating because I knew I had to. I just got through each day knowing that it would be worth it in the end, and it was. Of course that bit was easier second time around as I had Andrew as living proof right there in front of me (even if he was tiring to look after!) Nothing helped to relieve the nausea and vomiting – if I had a pound for every time someone asked me if I’d tried ginger I’d at least have made a healthy profit out of feeling so rubbish.

The statistician in me (the one who was taught all she knew during the PhD) understands that every ‘normal distribution’ is a curve – some lucky ladies are in the thin end at the left and suffer no or hardly any nausea and sickness (lucky them, she says gritting her teeth), some not-so-lucky ladies are around the peak of the curve and suffer nausea and sickness for about 14-15 weeks, and some unlucky ladies find themselves in the thin end at the right and get the nausea and sickness thing real bad and/or for ages. So far (week 15) I’m hanging around to the right of the peak, waiting to see whether I’ll slide any further down into the gloomy far-right of the curve, or whether I’ll be spared from the descent.

The nausea and vomiting in pregnancy (or NVP) had a big impact on daily life for both me and our family. When I was pregnant with Andrew, I had a week off work when the NVP first hit, and then was less productive at work for quite a while, taking several breaks, sometimes leaving early or working from home. Tom took care of everything around the flat, and we hardly saw each other as I would go to bed not long after he got in from work about 5.30pm. It surprised me how quickly the NVP came on – one day I was fine, and the next I woke up and was sick, thinking it would pass by the time I was dressed and ready, but it didn’t pass until many weeks later, like a constant tummy bug. So I completely understand how Kate could go from walking through Cambridge last Wednesday to lying in a hospital bed the following Monday.

When I was pregnant with Joel, I had a well-timed, but totally unplanned that way, week of annual leave from my then part-time job, which meant I could at least have a couple of days rest whilst Andrew was with the childminder. When I went back, I was again less productive, similar to the first time, and it was good timing with Easter week being at the height of the NVP and we went away with family so I could get lots of rest. However, the days I didn’t work were even harder, as I had Andrew to entertain. The groups we went to were in the morning, so most weeks I could just about manage to get us there and sit down whilst he played; then in the afternoon (I felt worse than in the morning), he would nap and I would spend that time flitting between lying down on the bed and having my head down the toilet. On a good day that would leave only an hour and a half or so to entertain him, usually with DVDs, until Tom got home, which is when I’d crawl into bed, though not always get off to sleep as the nausea was so bad. I do feel bad that Andrew had to put up with a less than with it mum then, just like I feel bad that I’m spending lots of time feeding Joel now, so he watches lots of DVDs and youtube. I guess that’s just part of having more than 1 child, and I always knew that it would be likely that I would get NVP again, but we decided it was better then than waiting longer, by which time he might not have been napping much and would need even more entertaining. Again, Tom was left to deal with everything around the flat, as well as this time looking after a toddler for every hour that he wasn’t working. Not particularly fun for any of us!

Now if that sounds bad enough, and I hope I’ve got the message across that it was, I actually count myself lucky! My mum suffered much more than that, being sick every day for two entire pregnancies, and a good friend of mine, Amanda over at the Family Patch also suffered very severe NVP with her son. Severe cases of NVP are actually called hyperemesis gravidarum or HG. This term is featured in some media reports of Kate’s pregnancy, but you have to search pretty deeply into them beyond the headlines, opening paragraphs and one-liners. “Morning sickness” gives the impression that it’s just about feeling sick first thing, and can lead to people who haven’t experienced moderate to severe NVP, even mums who have been pregnant themselves but not had these symptoms, wondering what all the fuss is about – can’t she just ‘get over it’? Amanda has written a very informative blog post as to why you can’t just ‘get over’ HG. My NVP wasn’t severe enough to call it HG, but it was certainly more than “morning sickness”.

It was hard enough coping with NVP in my relatively uneventful life, but I can’t imagine what it’s like having such severe HG and also being in the media spotlight. I feel so sorry for Kate, and wish her all the best, hoping that those caring for her can make the pregnancy as comfortable as possible. Before 12 weeks of pregnancy, the chances of something going wrong are still pretty high. I struggled with knowing this when feeling so awful, I was torn: do I tell people so that I don’t have to hide the NVP, or do I not tell in case I miscarry and have to go through telling people that? Again, in the media spotlight this must be an even harder decision, so I hate to think how Kate and William must have felt in making it. In the end we did what they have done and told people because it was too hard to hide any longer. This was more the case for my first pregnancy as I was working full-time in a big office, whereas second time I got away with telling fewer people before 12 weeks as I was working part-time and we’d moved offices to one where I was mostly in a room on my own, and on days I looked after Andrew I could avoid seeing lots of people.

I hope this post has helped show that “morning sickness” is a poorly (no pun intended) used term, and that NVP is a real condition to cope with that has a major impact on many pregnant mums and their families. Please share this, re-tweet it, or do whatever you can to help raise awareness. Thank you 🙂

Pregnancy diary: week 23 – swimming

I’ve been meaning to write a post on swimming in pregnancy for ages: in fact since before I was pregnant with this baby, because I was so impressed with how it helped me in pregnancy with Andrew that I wanted to share it with others who are (or will be) pregnant. This week isn’t particularly special in terms of how much I’ve swum, it’s more that I’m writing it now because nothing else has sprung to mind, and swimming is such a normal part of my weekly routine that I often forget about it. So here’s what I have to say about swimming in pregnancy.

Between about weeks 6 and 18, I can’t deny that I did less swimming than usual, because the sickness took over my life and forced me to take things a lot more easy than normal in terms of exercise. Before I had Andrew, I used to swim 3 times a week for about half an hour (60 lengths or 1 roughly mile). Obviously I had a gap of about 2.5 months after he was born when I didn’t swim, but since then I’d been managing to fit in about 2 half hour swims a week (not including the once a week I go with Andrew), which was as much as I could fit in around the times our local pool is available for public swimming and Tom is around to look after Andrew. This dropped to once a week when I started being sick with pregnancy; instead of half an hour of 60 lengths front crawl, I managed to do about half this and just breaststroke. I used to go in evenings, but as this was the worst time of day for the sickness, the only time I could make was a Saturday in the late morning. I didn’t enjoy it as much when feeling sick, but it was the form of exercise that made me feel the least sick – walking and cycling were worse, though I still had to do one of them most days. And it did make me feel refreshed for a short time afterwards, I guess because I always feel refreshed when I’ve been for a swim.

I thought it would be a good idea, given the theme of this week's post, to take a photo in my swimming costume. Incidentally, this has been a very good costume, it's still going strong half way though my 2nd pregnancy. It was from Mothercare maternity range, though I'm not sure they still do it. I wish I had a photo of me in the pool, but as I go on my own, there's nobody to take it!

Since about 18 weeks, although I’ve still not been feeling great with the lingering nausea, I have managed to get in one more swim in the early evening most weeks, even if only for 20 minutes. At about 20 weeks I did find that my energy level started to slowly increase, and I’ve been able to generally do more stuff (though I’m trying to remember not to go all out with my newly re-found energy and wear myself out again – easier said than done when life is so busy!) I’ve always found that swimming is a great way to feel energised. Whenever I’m feeling a bit lethargic or tired, although it’s an effort to get to the pool when I’m like that, I know that I feel so much better with 10 times more energy when I finish the swim, so it’s worth it in the end. This has certainly been true in pregnancy, perhaps even more so than usual. So I would definitely recommend swimming as a way of boosting your energy and feeling more positive about the tiredness at times when you inevitably feel low in pregnancy.

Swimming has always been something that gives me some ‘me-time’, time to be alone and think, to calm down after a busy day or to wake myself up slowly in the morning. When I’m under water, just hearing the sound of water swooshing around my ears, I find it helps me block out all the other noise of daily life and just concentrate on what I’d like to think through, for example my day at work or what activity I’m going to do with Andrew tomorrow. This is particularly important in pregnancy I’ve found, and even more so this time when I’m so busy with all the things that I try and fit into an average week, including running around after an active toddler. I’m very grateful to Tom for letting me have this time to myself, and I really appreciate just how important it is to me.

At the moment I still don’t feel particularly heavy, but I know it’s rapidly approaching that time, if this pregnancy is anything like the last, when the bump will suddenly grow a lot very quickly. When I was pregnant with Andrew, I found that swimming was the most comfortable form of exercise after about 30 weeks, because it isn’t weight-bearing. The time I spent in the pool was amazing, as it was the only time when I could forget just how big and heavy I felt on dry land! I still did quite a bit of walking, because that’s how I got around Cambridge without a bike, but it became quite tricky towards the end of pregnancy, when I would get a sudden pain in my hips and have to stop for a while. Swimming wasn’t at all painful though, even when doing breaststroke which uses the hips a lot.

Another good point about swimming is that you don’t get all sweaty whilst exercising. Given that I generally feel so much warmer in pregnancy already, I really don’t like getting even hotter when walking or cycling. This was less of an issue last time, because I was heavily pregnant in late autumn and winter when it was cold, but this time (if we get a proper summer!) it’ll be harder on this front. Swimming will be my way of cooling off.

In general I’d say that swimming is a great way to keep fit, both aerobically and for toning muscles. In pregnancy I found, and I’m finding again this time, that it’s a particularly good way to keep fit when your body is carrying extra weight and working extra hard. In my last pregnancy I swam right up until the day before Andrew was born (I didn’t have time on the day he was born as the midwife came in the morning and by the afternoon I was starting to get contractions and he was born at 10.22pm), and I intend to do the same this time. The midwife who was with us in labour and delivery said that she could tell I was fit for a pregnant mum, and I reckon all that swimming paid off in how quickly and smoothly labour went. I’m hoping the same will happen again, though I know complications can unexpectedly happen.

If I haven’t convinced you by now that swimming in pregnancy is a great idea, I’m not sure what else I would have to say! I know I’m biased in that I’ve always loved swimming and done a lot of it, but I think it can be something for everyone, because you take take things at the pace you want. I totally understand that some people are not too keen on wearing just a swimming costume in public, and that might get even harder in pregnancy as the body changes shape. I’ve personally found that having a bump is a great conversation starter in the pool, as others are amazed to see a pregnant swimmer pacing up and down the lanes, overtaking some of the other swimmers on her way!

Next week I get to see baby again at an extra scan that we’re having, as part of doctor training (I wrote about this back at week 14 – I can’t believe how time is flying, it seemed like ages until 24 weeks back then!) So there’ll be another picture to see/try and figure out. I’m looking forward to it 🙂

What’s so good about breastfeeding?

You don’t have to look too far in the antenatal bumpf, sorry I mean ‘literature’, that we’re given these days to see a list of the ‘benefits of breastfeeding’. When I first read these during my first pregnancy, I was encouraged to see that I would be able to take advantage of many good things, for both my baby and me, if I breastfed him. But it wasn’t until Andrew arrived and we started breastfeeding that these really struck me, even though it was by no means all plain sailing (you can read our breastfeeding story here if you haven’t before.)

But before I go into details about what particularly struck me, I’d like to just share a thought that was shared at my local La Leche League (LLL) breastfeeding support group. The perspective that the good things about breastfeeding are ‘benefits’ or ‘advantages’ is a sign of the society we live in, in which feeding formula milk in bottles became the norm and breastfeeding was the less common alternative option, though many people are now working to reverse this by pointing out the ‘benefits’ of breastfeeding over bottle feeding. If we step back from this society, and imagine that breastfeeding is the norm, the perspective is different: what we see instead are the ‘disadvantages’ and ‘risks’ of bottle feeding as the alternative option if breastfeeding, the norm, doesn’t happen (for whatever reason), and the ‘benefits’ or ‘advantages’ of breastfeeding are simply what’s ‘normal’ from a biological point of view. I hope that makes sense – I’ve found it useful to have that change in perspective when thinking of the good points about breastfeeding.

The most positive thing about breastfeeding Andrew that I have noticed on a practical level is how little he has been ill. He’s had the odd runny nose and cough, but nothing that’s particularly bothered him. We’ve only got through one bottle of paracetamol suspension in 16 months, and that’s been used mainly for teething-related minor temperature and pain. Twice there has been a classic tummy bug with vomiting and diarrhoea in the house, but both times Andrew got away very lightly with just one vomiting incident each time and a quick bounce back to normal, whilst Tom was incredibly sick for a couple of days and I was somewhere in between my boys in terms of how sick I was. (Note that since I wrote this – typical! – Andrew has had one more vomiting incident which was probably a bug but Tom and I weren’t very sick (apart from my usual pregnancy sickness) and Andrew has seemed absolutely fine in himself otherwise.) We are convinced that this lack of illness in Andrew is down to the breast milk that he has, and in the case of the tummy bugs, both he and I, the breastfeeding pair, fared much better than Tom.

Breast milk contains antibodies that pass from mum to baby, and these help to fight off illnesses; this is something that formula milk just does not provide – antibodies are something that can only come directly from another human, i.e. mum! The even more amazing thing that I’ve learned through reading about the good things about breastfeeding is that when an ill baby sucks on the breast, traces of the pathogen (what’s causing the illness) are left on the breast, and this prompts the mum’s immune system to make even more antibodies, which then get passed through to baby when he feeds later. It’s like a tailor-made medicine ordering service, which happens without us even realising it. As a brand new newborn baby, Andrew drank the colostrum, the first milk full of antibodies, from my breasts, and this gave his immune system a good start in life outside the womb. Since then, as I continue to feed him breast milk, he continues to receive antibody help from me, and I think this has been a great help particularly in the second year of life, when he’s come into contact with lots of bugs as he mixes with other children at groups and with the childminder. So this help with immunity is just as important for him as a toddler as it was as a baby.

The second positive thing that hit me about breastfeeding compared to formula feeding is the cost. Breast milk is absolutely free, and formula is soooo expensive! When Andrew was a baby I did have to supplement my breast milk with formula, because my supply was not sufficient for his needs (this was caused by specific factors in our breastfeeding journey, and was advised by medical professionals as well as an independent lactation consultant; you can read about this here). In our case, I really resented having to pay for formula because it was so expensive and I knew I was contributing to a business that ultimately does not support breastfeeding. I would have given anything to be able to exclusively breastfeed, and the way I saw it, any way that I could increase my supply meant that we would spend less and give less money to the formula companies. Babies cost a lot of money in general over the years, so I really didn’t get why I would want to pay for something that my body could make for the baby for free, and make a better job of it at the same time (it’s just that my body didn’t make enough of it for Andrew).

Besides the physical benefit of good health and practical benefit of saving money, I have definitely appreciated the emotional side of breastfeeding too, far more than I realised I would. Before Andrew was born, my take on breastfeeding was something like: ‘I know it has lots of good things about it, and I’ll give it a good go, but if it doesn’t work out then nevermind, I’m sure we’ll both cope without it.’ But after the birth and into the first days with Andrew, it was like some kind of instinctual emotional hormonal switch was turned on inside me, that made me feel very passionately about wanting to breastfeed him. I’m not normally one for such ‘airy fairy’ ideas, but it was something that just happened in my thoughts and actions, and I don’t know the where/why/how of where it came from, I just know it was suddenly there! There was something about having him so close and sucking from me that seemed so natural, like what was supposed to happen, and when he was feeding, I felt so happy, even though it wasn’t always easy – it’s hard to describe.

But I’m not weird (honestly!): this feeling is also reported by other breastfeeding mums, and we know that it comes from the hormone oxytocin being released whenever the baby sucks at the breast. I knew I didn’t want to give up on this amazing feeling that nothing else could give me, which is why when we knew we had to supplement with formula, I was so glad that I was shown a way to do it that meant Andrew could still suck from me – I’ll talk more about that in my next breastfeeding post. This emotional positive has meant a lot to me as mum, so it shows breastfeeding is not all about what’s good for baby. Now that Andrew is getting old enough that his emotions are easier to figure out (most of the time) compared to when he was a baby, I can tell that breastfeeding means a lot to him emotionally too. It’s what he turns to whenever he’s feeling tired, grumpy, hurt, or sad in any way. And as his mum I can definitely recommend it as an effective way to help him get through these occasions – to be honest I don’t know what I’d do without it sometimes and I know I will have to confront this and find alternatives when his brother/sister takes over the role of breastfeeder in the family 😉

Now that you’ve read my experience of what’s so good about breastfeeding, why don’t you head over to some other participating blogs and read what they have to say? Below are some links for you. There are some common themes, but not everyone has the same experience of what’s good about breastfeeding, so you’ll find things other than what I’ve written here too. For example, I know lots of breastfeeding mums say how it helped them lose the ‘baby weight’, which wasn’t the case for me as I didn’t put on loads and what I did put on I’ve kept, probably because I was previously underweight and my body has said ‘hold on, I’m keeping all I can in store for the nursling in case you decide to lose it again!!’ We’re all different, and that’s one thing I find fascinating about hearing others’ experiences of breastfeeding. Anyway, have fun reading them! And don’t forget to enter the competition below to have a chance of winning the grand prize!

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Pregnancy diary: week 18 – a bug (not of the insect variety)

I’m sitting writing this whilst Andrew naps on a day that I would normally be at work. The reason he’s with me and not at the childminder’s is that he seems to have had a bug. He’s actually been fine in himself, running about as usual, playing and laughing with no more than the usual odd whinge here and there. He is eating a bit less than normal, although given that he has a huge appetite normally, it’s not like he’s eating next to nothing! But on Sunday evening he was sick once, and yesterday one of his nappies was very dodgy, so that’s the main reason I can’t send him to the childminder – she needs 24 hours clearance after the last vomiting/nappy incident. Plus Tom had a day of feeling sick and being exhausted on Monday, and I had had a few days over the weekend of feeling worse than I had been in terms of sickness and exhaustion (which I initially put down to the fact I was getting over a cold), so that suggests we’ve all had some kind of bug.

The bump and the toddler!

So as you can guess it’s been another hard week of feeling pretty rubbish and having to get on with everything anyway. The thing about being pregnant and getting ill is that whatever it is seems to feel 10 times worse than it would if I wasn’t pregnant. I guess we’re also more prone to getting bugs now that we have Andrew and he’s mixing with other kids and sharing germs, which wasn’t the case when I was pregnant with him (although I was working in schools then, so maybe it’s not that different!)

But looking on the bright side, it could have been a lot worse. We could have all been sick a lot more, we’ve only had to clear up sick and deal with an explosive nappy once, and looking after Andrew hasn’t been any different to normal, in fact he’s been napping well, so that’s given me good sleep and even more time in the day to rest myself and get things done when needed. And really we can’t complain in general about how healthy he is. In 16 months of life (10 months of solid-food eating) I’ve only had to deal with sick (other than milky baby spitting) on two one-off occasions. Not bad going!

When thinking about his health, I always end up thinking about breastfeeding. Of course I can’t prove that his almost lack of sickness is entirely down to the fact that he gets immunological help from my milk, but it is known that breastfeeding does help in this respect. This bug got me thinking about weaning again. He’s still not showing any signs of stopping feeding on his own, and of course he’s been feeding more than usual whilst being a bit poorly; it was the first thing he wanted once he’d finished being sick. It’s times like this that I’m really going to miss breastfeeding him when we don’t do it any more, and I do feel a bit bad that he won’t be getting any help from me in fighting bugs when we stop. But it helps me to think that I’ve helped give him a really good start in life in terms of his immune system. And of course it’s not like we’re stopping for no reason – there’s another little one who will also benefit from mummy’s marvelous milk 😉

I hope next week won’t involve any more illness, and that I’ll be starting to feel more ‘normal’ again – I’ve almost forgotten what that feels like! Hopefully for you, the post will be a more positive read too!

And then there were four….

A while ago I wrote a short post just in case anyone was missing me on here, because I knew I wasn’t writing as often as I once was. I talked about a couple of projects – one was my editorial work for my local NCT branch magazine, and the other wasn’t quite ready to be announced back then. Well the time has finally come when I’d like to share with you our news (in case you hadn’t guessed already from my not-so-cryptic clue, or seen on Facebook)….. I’m pregnant! That’s right, at the end of October, our three-person family will expand to four 🙂 We’re very excited, and very much looking forward to the new arrival.

Isn't he/she cute?!
Baby Cumming (2) at 13 weeks and 2 days

This scan photo was taken earlier this week, at 13 weeks and 2 days (according to size estimations from the scan itself), giving us a due date of 30th October. As I remember feeling at our first scan with Andrew, this was an amazing experience, because it was the first time we saw a proper picture of our baby (I say proper, since we actually had a scan at 9 weeks this time – but baby still looked like a prawn then – because of a mix up with dates and communication between our community midwife and the hospital ultrasound department procedures…. gotta love the NHS!) Until this week, all I had to ‘prove’ I really did have a real, live and kicking baby growing inside me were a couple of pregnancy tests (we did two just to really believe them) and awful sickness. Seeing baby move on screen, and its little heart beating, was a lovely reassurance that all was fine.

I’m going to try and write a kind of pregnancy diary on the blog, hopefully weekly or thereabouts, to keep anyone interested up to date with how things are going. I’ve even created a new category called ‘pregnancy and breastfeeding’. Although I’ve talked about breastfeeding before on here, it’s always just come under ‘mum-hood’. But as it is one of the biggest things on my mind in this pregnancy so far, I feel it could really do with its own space. I have a feeling there’s going to be a lot I want to share on that front – all the things I know now having struggled through the first 6 months of breastfeeding Andrew, but having come out the other side feeling very positive, making it to toddler breastfeeding, and now even breastfeeding in pregnancy! Eek, how did I ever get to be doing that?! (I feel that needs a post in its own right some time.)

So, as a first addition to this pregnancy diary, how would I summarise the first 13 weeks? That’s pretty easy really: sickness, nausea and exhaustion. Not very positive, sorry! As many of you will know from your own or friends’ experience, the first trimester (and beyond) of pregnancy can be pretty awful for mum, and leave you feeling rubbish at a time when you expected to be feeling over the moon. Since about week six, I’ve been feeling constantly nauseous, and been sick several times a day, although this week less often, so I’m hoping that actually being sick is wearing off, and that at some point the constant nausea will too (it did at about 20 weeks with Andrew).

This time round I can’t say that it’s been any easier than last, even though I now have Andrew as living proof that all the sickness really will be worth it in the end. In some ways it’s been even harder than last, probably because I’ve been more tired through looking after Andrew, and I can’t just take things at my own pace. It did help that I had a (totally co-incidental, not planned that way) week of annual leave from work in March just as I started to be really sick, and another week and a half at Easter, when I was very grateful to our amazing families who gave us a week of rest when we all went on holiday together.

Like last time, I’ve learned coping strategies for getting through the day, like what to try and eat when, and what to do and avoid doing (for example, rest as much as possible and not be near any food that’s being cooked!) If anyone wants to suggest ginger – been there, done that, doesn’t help. I’m wearing seabands – not that I think they make much (any?!) difference, but I don’t want to take them off and potentially feel even worse than I do, it’s just not worth the risk. My bedtime has ranged from about 5.30pm when Tom gets in from work, to 8pm when Andrew is asleep; even if I don’t get to sleep straight away due to the nausea, at least I’m lying down in a darkened room.

Maybe this is all a bit too much information? Well the reason I decided to be so up front about this is that I think pregnancy sickness is something that there could be more support for, rather than something mums-to-be feel they just have to ‘put up with’ alone. A friend of mine and fellow blogger, Amanda over at the Family Patch, is doing great things to promote awareness of nausea and vomiting in pregnancy (NVP), and its most severe form, Hyperemesis gravidarum, which she suffered from whilst carrying her son. I totally agree with her that more can be done to support mums who are battling with feeling so awful and isolated, and also to research what causes NVP and how best to help. It is so good to know that I’m not alone in this, and although that doesn’t get rid of the NVP problem, it does help to try and deal with it on a daily basis. I’m also very grateful that Tom is very supportive, not only by keeping on top of all the housework that I haven’t been able to do, but also listening to me whinge about how rubbish I’m feeling.

Having written this, I don’t want to detract from what is a very positive and exciting time for us. Despite the sickness, I’m feeling very happy that I’m soon going to be a mum of two little ones 🙂 This really is a dream come true, and something that I didn’t take for granted would just happen. Since I gave birth to Andrew, I have felt increasingly as though my main role in life is being mum; although I returned to work part-time when he was 9 months old, I have known since then that I would take a break from paid work either at the end of my contract, or if and when we were blessed with another baby (which turns out to be 2 months before the end of my contract), to look after our family. I’m looking forward to sharing more about how things progress with this pregnancy over the weeks, and I’m sure future diary posts will be full of good times. Exciting!